I blog again! (and it's long)

I just re-read that last blog - the gallbladder one - made me kind of chuckle. I was soo scared of that surgery and it was just nothing. I had the surgery the day after my ER visit because "waiting" didn't happen lol. I was just expecting surgery to be soo horrible but it really wasn't. Once I got back from the second surgery I declined all meds so that I'd get my 24 hrs "drug free" so that I could get back to breastfeeding asap. Worked out good, I hit my 24 hrs right when Dh showed up with the kids to get me and MAN was Hunter happy to have a boob back lol! The doctor came in and offered me some prescription pain relievers but really, it wasn't that bad! Compared to the pain I had been in for days.. it was completely tolerable so I declined. A little sore to lay down but not bad. I took some tylonel that day I got home (which was Thursday July 23rd - Joe's 8th birthday) but by Saturday I was myself again, loaded the kids up for some shopping, got lunch, had fun with my mom - got yelled at for being up and moving around. But who the hell could just lay in bed? I heal faster when I'm up and doing things. I think that's why I recovered from having Hunter so fast, I was home 4 hrs after he was born and I was able to cook the family dinner and clean my house and just went back to my normal life. Anyway, glad that is all said and done!

Sorry if I seem kind of bitchy, whiney, hormonal - truth is I just am all those things right now. I really DO like it here, I just a spoiled rotten brat who doesn't like to have to deal with some things - like walking the dog and going upstairs to use the bathroom and to the basement to shower. Amazingly enough the 70's shag carpet, the crazy kitchen tile, and the green appliances aren't bothering me at all. The oven and I have had our moments - it's a royal peice of crap but we went and ordered one at Sears yesterday and it's supposed to be here Christmas eve so with any luck we'll have a nice new oven to cook our Christmas prime rib in. Sad thing is that I have a beautiful new oven sitting in the basement that I can't use because the house is set up for gas and the electric box thing isn't big enough to handle an electric oven. Anyway, a new oven will make a world of difference. Then in January we're having this company come take our kitchen cabinets and basically cut them so that we can fit our big white fridge upstairs. Then I might convience my husband to buy me a new dishwasher next year and the house will have pretty new white appliances! I wish the house was bigger because if it had another 2 bedrooms and another bathroom with new carpet and tile I could live here. But it's very small so we're thinking about building a new house on the extra lot we have and then my mom has mentioned renting this place from us (I think she's ready to leave AZ now that her husband passed). That would be very cool. I really don't mind the area, the school district is supposed to be one of the best and so far Joe's really happy there. It's a very small town but close to bigger ones - literally like 10 minutes down the street we have a huge mall, walmarts and all that good stuff. So it's really not that bad. I just am a brat =D.

I'm trying sooo hard to have patience with the dog. She's having a hard time adjusting too, she's used to having a huge backyard with free roam and now has to be walked. And DH is wanting to put a run up for her but it scares me because she's little and cute so people want to pet her but she's mean and will bite. So I worry about that. Maybe we'll fence an area in summer for her. The inlaws house sits on 14 acres and when we go visit we take her because we can let her go and she just runs and barks and chases animals. She just loves being there. I almost wish they'd adopt her lol. (MIL wants her badly, Joe has already agree'd to this arrangment but FIL says NO! lol)

Kids are good, excited about Christmas. Jayden actually sat with Santa for a picture this year -made me soo happy! He's always telling me that Santa is coming and bringing him a Wii (he just wants everything Joe wants - we got him a splatster, he's going to love it). Joe is worried - I've put NO gifts out this year, so he's wondering if he's getting any and has already mentioned that he doesn't think Santa will come because he's been kind of bad this year lol. He doesn't know it but the cabinets in the basement are full of wrapped presents hehehe. And there are some hidden at the inlaws house too. The Christmas we had planned on "taking it easy" on gifts ended up being the one we spent the most (typical). They're all getting very spoiled this year. The inlaws all went insane buying them stuff... they have no idea the stuff waiting for them! A bunch of spoiled little boys, what more can you want?! hehe

My "baby" is already almost 7 months old and he does not give a crap about Christmas lol! He's crawling and pulling himself up on everything. He says, "UH OH" all the time now. He's a ham! He flirts with everyone lol. He'll find someone and start smiling and giggling and if they don't respond to his attention seeking he screams at them lol. It's cute. He's decided baby food is for babies - he wants chunks so he can feed himself. He'll still eat off a spoon, but prefers stuff he can feed himself. And he lets you know when he's hungry he sits and slaps his mouth and clicks and chews when he wants food. And if I ignore him he screams, literally screams, "MAMAMAMAMAMAMA" lol.

Anyway, I won't write an entire book today I'll call it quits here.

My ER visit

So at 11pm I felt kind of... ewy, like my stomach was starting to hurt. I tried to ignore it and just went to bed (knowing what I was in for). Woke up at 1:30 and it was starting to hurt REAL bad... again, tried to ignore it. Wasn't happening, I was in so much freaking pain I wanted to get a knife and cut it out myself! I told DH I HAVE to go the ER because I'm not gonna survive this one. I would have much rather been in labor all over again, because it did not hurt nearly this bad (and I had a NATURAL childbirth lol)! We loaded up the kids and went to the ER - I was in soooooo much pain I made him drive like 50 and run all the redlights (it was 2am by now -dead out!). Thank GOD the hospital is not even 3 minutes from the house! So we get there, he drops me off so I can get in there and parks. They take us back and the nurse does all the typical stuff. Leaves, comes back tries to get an IV going - about kills me with that, she couldn't get it and gave up. Doctor comes in and I've been there like an hour and the pain is much much better at this point. Talks to me, feels around and says, "Your other two doctors didn't think you have a gallbladder problem? You have all the right symptoms, the right area, and you just had a baby, it's a perfect fit!".. UM, THANK YOU, That's what I've been saying! So he has them run some blood work to make sure it's nothing else - HOURS later he comes back and something in my blood pointed him to my gallbladder even more. So he gave me a referral to the imaging center. Supposed to call at 7 to get an appt for today or tomorrow to confirm that it is that. Then I'll have to schedule surgery.

We talked about the surgery and the baby... he said that the gallbladder isn't a huge deal like health wise - I won't die tomorrow from it but it sucks pain wise. However he felt it would be better if I waited till the baby was older to get it done (because of breastfeeding) and the fact I may not be able to for a while because of meds & "healing". Soooo he was thinking I should try to hold off for 4-6 months. He gave me a huge pamplet on what to NOT eat to keep me from having problems and some meds to take should I have one. It will calm my gallbladder and stop the pain. Down side to the meds - after I take them I can't nurse for 4 hours! So... yeah, not good. Then once Hunter is old enough to go a while without eating we can do the surgery. Unless I keep having attacks and the meds don't help then I just need to get it done.

My poor husband he was soooo scared tonight, he thought for sure they were going to hall me off and do it right then and there. He was like OMG I have no milk for Hunter, he's never even been offered a bottle you know he won't take it lol. So it was a huge relief that we can wait a while longer.

Sucks I might have to deal w/ pain longer BUT I'll just watch my diet close and hell maybe this "paper and water" diet will help me lose a bunch of weight! Gotta look at it positively right?
Anyway, I'm still feeling pretty crappy - can't lay down, it hurts. So I'm gonna go watch some tube! Oh yeah... I got serious cuff hickies lol! I'll have to post a picture of that later!